One Crazy Duckie...

I had a follow up appointment with my doctor today, and my results from the last biopsy came back clean around the edges, which means that the cancer was isolated to the specific area originally removed.  That news came with great delight!!!  But I do still have a have at least two more spots removed, the spots on my scalp will be removed on the 20th of this month hopefully with similar results of being clean around the edges so that I can steer clear of any further treatments!!!

 

 I am a hopeless romantic and it bit me in the ass again.  Got to love life and everything it tries to bring you down with ;)

 I am so ready for spring break it is not even funny...

 so Dan and I broke up last night...

guess what....guess what....guess what???


did you guess yet??





did you guess yet???




how about now???



well i guess i will just tell.....




in a bit....




I AM IN LOVE WITH DANIEL A ROBEY!!!!!  


yup pretty sure of it!!!

Well I just got back from an amazing week in Jamaica!!  I went as a chaparone for LC's mission trip and had an absolutely wonderful time! just amazing! and while I was down there the Isle Go leader offered me a month long internship in Jamaica and so I am going to be spending the entire month of July in Jamaica mon!!!!!  AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH how sweet is that!!! I am very very much excited!!  but other than that I just wanted to drop by and say hi and I love you and miss you all!!!

m

I got into Wayne State University!!!!

yea thats right!!!! I'm going away to college next year...a real college!!!!  yay!!!!!!!!

went to a three days grace concert yesterday and it was fucking awesome!!! awesome!! if you have a chance to catch them on tour i would highly recommend it because pretty soon, buckcherry and nickleback with be joining as their opening acts! and that will be fucking sweet shit!! and i was in the pit, that was a blast i would also highly recommend that for anyone with a bit of anger built up! and if you ever get a chance to see someone at the harpos music theatre you need to!

I don't know who knows but I have some bad news for everyone. Today I found out that BJ Carter's mom has passed away.

a good thing finally emerged from a bad bad bad week, other than seeing my wonderful Zack because that was goodness!! On sunday I smashed a bambi and i was so shaken that i could not bring myself to study for my precalc test so on monday i took my precalc test and only got a 73 on it and it was pretty basic test over fucking logs so it should have been a piece of cake. but oh well. Tuesday was goodness because i got to see zack and we went for a run the badness was that i had fucking class on halloween night so no fun times for me that night, and i got my physics test back with i only got a 60 on but considering that the class average was a 46, i'd say i did pretty golden. but am still going to retake it...hope it goes better the second time around. Wednesday I had to work and i had a huge test to study for while at work but oh no they stick with a trainee so i can't study without feeling guilty about it so i wait and do it at home afterwards. Thursday took my chem test, blanked the minutes i got my test... ie not good!!! but i got my grade back to day and i got a 84 so i feel better, much better!!! i still have my 3.5 in the class which is goodness to my ears...

oh well i guess thats about all the excitement of my life other than i am going back to jamaica as a chaperone this year and franklin is going too! so that is going to be a rocking good time!

love you and miss you
m

Do you ever feel as if your life is simply a cage that is holding you down. Every aspect of it cages into something that you seemingly long to be free of. At the moment it seems like I've worked to hard towards my goals and not gotten any closer, I'm caged in the same day and that is all I experience over and over again. At work I look out of the same little window every day, nothing every changes but the names on the board... I'm changed by repeation...every thing i do in the same way on the same days and for a while it works but then you get bored of it and long for something more, a change to spread your legs and stretch off into new grounds. And yet it seems that the goals you set don't allow that to happen when you most desperately need it to, caged by your desires, wants and sometimes even your fears...

...maybe its just the start of interesting thought better left to be finished another day...

love

m

there is no sting that hurts more than the betrayal of a loved one, there is no tear that burns the flesh quite like a tear that you fight to stop its falling. there is nothing... thats a lie, there is a small black abyss that i used to call my heart, and there is an emptiness that i can't ever fill. i lack a soul with which to fill the hollow. i lack a mouth with which to smile, all that is left of me is left in pieces, small unidentifiable shreds of life and me. they are scattered and lack the ability to be found. now there is nothing...

nothing....


nothing...

not even the salt from a tear.

Your political compass
Economic Left/Right: -5.13
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -0.87

ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS OMG!!!!!!!!!! I GOT A SCHOLARSHIP TODAY THAT WILL COVER MY TUITION FOR THE NEXT YEAR!!!! OMFG!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....I DANCED IN THE CAR!!!!!!!!

VERY VERY VERY VERY GOOD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUCH LOVE
M

well i got into my first car accident today and it sincerely wasn't my fault but because i rear-ended the car infront of me i get the ticket!!! how lovely is that but yet she gets off free and clear even though she is one the one who pulled out infront of me and proceeded to slam on her brakes!!!!

life is good, i seriously think i would be better off without a license and car at this point in my life...

much love

see you all soon

life has been a bit random lately...

went for a 8k run on saturday and was very amazed at my time 54:25 heehee i was excited to say the least!!

got to see a ton of ppl this weekend and that makes me very very happy!!!

got very little homework done and that also makes me happy!!!

well must get back to writing class

much love

so i have decided that i have to summer classes. UGH!!! but i guess that it will help my fall and winter semester be a little be easier since my schedule for here on out is effing hell!!!!

so over the summer i'm taking probability and statistics and one other class but im not sure which one yet maybe a music class or an art history class can't decide which one i want to take yet...

and then fall I have decided on to for sure class: chem and pre-calc which puts me at 10 credit hours and would like to take 2 more classes maybe...not sure yet

i got a part time job at foote so i now work there 6 days every 2 weeks and am going to continue working at rite aid and maybe even jcc throughout the summer...but the up swing is i should have just about every other weekend (saturday night and all of sunday OFF) i love it!!! i decided that time off can be a rather nice/semi-good thing!!! haha i know im a crazy workaholic...heehee but i love it so!!!!

oh well i guess that is all from me today

much love

please keep a special intention in your prayers!! thank you very much


other than that ugh is all i have to fucking say...right now life is a steaming pile of poo and my fat ass is moving in the wrong direction in relation to the pile

i gave in and i feel like poo because of it

you see i have been craving a mickey d's breakfast (disgusting i know) but i justed wanted it so bad so after my weight watchers meeting (where i found out i lost 3 pounds woot!!!) i went to mickey d's and proceeded to get a sausage egg and cheese mcmuffin (but i wanted a mcgriddle) and a hash brown and just tore them both apart and now my stomach hurts and i gunna have to work out like 3 times today to get it to not adhere to my already fat-enough ass

yea so that is like my life in a nut shell today

much love

diamonds may be a girls best friend but once a month chocolate is my best fucking friend!!!!